I am on my own this week. Kind of. Luke is here in spirit I am sure. At least I know for sure that he would rather be here than stuck in some lame hotel in Indiana working more hours then he’d like.
It is weird to have him gone. It’s his birthday week so it is especially weird to have him gone. That and it is weird to not have to make anything for dinner if I don’t want to. Monkey is perfectly happy to dive into a bowl of cereal for dinner, as am I, but that would never fly with Luke.
I think I may have mentioned before that Luke is a meat eater. A big time meat eating, lean protein loving man. Every meal is supposed to have a large portion of lean meat for him to devour. Some nights I try to sneak in soup and sandwich for dinner and he always ends up eating a second meal an hour or two later. Lets just say it is not cheap to shop for food to feed this guy.
But I digress. This post has nothing to do with my grocery bill and everything to do with how people impact our lives. More specifically how Luke impacts mine.
It is easy to forget about what a person means to your life. Yes I love my husband more than I can say, but if I push all that love aside it is interesting to think about how Luke affects my everyday life.
Although I am a pretty independent woman there are holes in my day without Luke, some small and some big. There isn’t the sound of the garage door announcing his return home from work every evening. There are half as many dishes in the dishwasher. The toilet seat is always down. When Monkey and I sit down for dinner only a third of the seats at our table are filled instead of half like when Luke is home.
When he is gone I am reminded of all those holes he fills in my day. All those holes that could only fit Luke. I am spoiled with all those spots of Luke that make my day normal and comfortable, warm and happy. Without Luke I am pretty sure my life would look nothing like it does now and that makes me grateful.
Very grateful for what I have.
Very grateful for the present moment and where I am, as well as the future and were I am going, with Luke by my side.
Very grateful that there is a Luke to make such an impact on my everyday, every week, every year. Happy Birthday, Love.
